~Music~

It fascinates me how music can bring out certain moods.
It can make you cry.
It can make you laugh.
It can make you want to sing or hum as loud as you can just to feel the joy of expression.
It can do so many things and what is it really?
A bunch of notes and words that combine to somehow form a melody.  Something so simple affects us in such a huge way. Why are human emotions so influencable? *Is that even a word?*

Sometimes, I hate how quickly emotions can be changed by something so... I can't think of the word but it's like an elephant being dented by a fly landing on its head.  That sounds weird but I know what I mean.

#Read between the lines

And thus it was. A fourth age of middle-earth began. And the fellowship of the ring... though eternally bound by friendship and love... was ended. Thirteen months to the day since Gandalf sent us on our long journey... we found ourselves looking upon a familiar sight. We were home. How do you pick up the threads of an old life? How do you go on... when in your heart you begin to understand... there is no going back? There are some things that time cannot mend... some hurts that go too deep... that have taken hold. Bilbo once told me his part in this tale would end... that each of us must come and go in the telling. Bilbo's story was now over. There would be no more journeys for him... save one. My dear Sam. You cannot always be torn in two. You will have to be one and whole for many years. You have so much to enjoy and to be and to do. Your part in the story will go on.

I miss my grandad a lot more than I should.
I barely knew him.
But every time it comes round to Rememberance, I can't help but wonder what he went through, what he did, what he never told us.

~Quotes.~

What it is about quotes that makes us want to share them? The funny ones, the nice ones, the deep and meaningful ones.

Sometimes, I think people share stuff because they want you to find that episode, or that song, listen to it, hear that quote in context, and realise what they're feeling.

Like drawing a parallel to their life in invisble ink and throwing you the UV light.  You choose whether to catch it or not.

~The Butterfly Effect~

"Does the flap of a butterfly’s wings in Brazil set off a tornado in Texas?"

Yeah, if you haven't seen the film then watch it.
Seriously.
In a way it's like Shutter Island in that it really makes you question how your mind works and consequences of your actions and stuff.
But basically it was making me think and if you had the opportunity to go back into your childhood memories and change a bad experience into something positive, would you do it? And what would you do if you came back to the present and found out that your life might be better but someone else's was much, much worse?

If you had the chance would you make yourself unhappy so that others could be happy? Or would you be more concerned with fixing your own life first?

And most of all, would you sacrifice it all so that every single person in your life bar you had a better life?

I think I had a better point than that but I've forgotten what it was...

The idea in itself is pretty interesting though - something small leading to something huge. I wonder if life really works that way...

~Determinism~

Determinism - the theory that all choices are pre-determined by circumstance.  Knowledge of the paticular circumstance would change the outcome of your "choice".


So, basically, if we believed this idea then we, as humans, would have no real control over what happened in our lives, merely an illusion of choice.  In essence, it could support the idea of destiny - inevitable choices that lead us to an inevitable outcome, an inevitable path that we must follow. 


To be honest, I'm not sure if I like this idea or not really.  It's certainly impossible to say for definite that it is false, but then there's no real proof that it's true either.  I mean, the thought of just following a set path in life has it's attractive points - you could never really make a 'wrong choice' because you were meant to do what you did and it's comforting to think that everyone is going somewhere in life.


But then, how is it decided who gets what destiny?  How is the choice made that gives one person fame and fortune and another poverty and misery?  I suppose life can never be fair but I find it hard to believe that some people are unable to work their way out of a bad situation simply because some higher power has determined that they can't.


I guess, I'm still a fan of choosing your own way in the world - although, that too could be a choice in itself.  Can you choose to make your own choices?  And if that's the case, then was that choice pre-determined and so you're still not really acting independently?


I can just tell, two years of Philosophy and TOK is gonna make my head hurt....

The official end of term wasn't so bad - I knew we still had a few weeks of summer left to enjoy after exams.
Exams came and went and in all the stress I forgot what was really going to happen.
Summer arrived and all those worries went out the window - this was a time for enjoyment and celebration.
The leaving day came and I felt strange, unconnected. I don't think I believed what these actions were telling me.
Suddenly it's a new term. 
Only now do I truly realise how much I miss you guys. All day I had to stop myself from waiting behind so you could catch up, because in my mind you were only round the corner, just about to come into view. 
This is why the night time is so special - the blanket of darkness makes it safe to say this before we're exposed again by the harsh reality of the Sun. 


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